Free Write January 2022

So you expect me to believe that all of the races of America are secretly spiritually segregated, and God is a racist? Slavery proves that God tends to favor one race of people over others. Providence is the idea that God favored Americans and that they couldn't fail.

Imagine a person coming up to you and saying, yeah, I represent all Mexicans, all blacks, all whites . . .

Also, that all of the white people in America, all of them, are in one huge secret gang ran by Jesus Christ?

So, Jesus loves all the little children of the world, red and yellow, black and white, but as soon as they become adults he loves only whites?

How the fuck does Jesus Christ favor the Jews? Also, why are gentiles unclean? Because we don't wash our feet with our women's hair? That shit sounds retarded.

I have a constitutional right to practice any religion I want to practice.

And for some reason we are repeatedly persuaded to only worship Jesus Christ. Why the fuck do I feel these emotions that do not correlate with my state of mind, personality, or emotions.

Because it seems that the free will is in chains, in fetters.

And if my free will is limited and others' will is not limited how is that lawful or morally acceptable?

The world is real, tangible, can be felt, and affect the senses.

There is another aspect of man, that is the ideas the "controller," the "persuader," it is an intangible form of being that does dissuade free will and creates its own will out of amusement, punishment, or some other cruel and unusual inaction.

I'm a Christian because that was the normal thing to be growing up in Ontario, California with my parents. Their parents had the same religion.

Somewhere down the abysmal lineage of history Christianity was a new weird thing, and there was polytheism, people worshipping nature and whichever God they believed helped them and their lives. And farther back there was no religion, no God, just man, and maybe this is what Nietzche means by becoming child like in order to progress towards becoming the Superman. The superman is primitive, child like . . .

Is there one God or one religion? Is that what the prophets meant, one religion? One nation, one religion, total dominance of the planet? Are there more than one God? How come all of the prison gangs go back to a sort of religious Primitiveness? And the police and others seem to be Christian and push that agenda. Are they only seeming to be Christian? Why do we go to court and put our hand in the Bible? I think people should be left alone to live their lives without human interaction. Eric Andre says to legalize everything, maybe he's right.

Im not in an epic argument with God, I'm in an epic argument with man.